Closing doors and opening Windows or something.

Closing a door while another opens. Saying goodbye while saying hello.

blah blah blah.

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Every time someone in the tech/web industry leaves a job, they write some sappy blog post about how it’s with a mix of “great sadness and overwhelming excitement that they say goodbye to great friends and begin a new journey…”

I hate those.

But, there is some truth to them–somewhere in there if you can get passed the sappiness. So, instead, I give you my own take. My Dear John Letter to Urban Airship.

Dear Urban.

Look, I think we should talk.

These past 9 months have been amazing. All the time we’ve spent getting to know each other. Talking about mobile, and the future. It’s been so exciting, so… expansive. What we could do, and where we could go, and how we were going to change the world. I’ve treasured those days.

And, you’ve been incredible. Really. I can say without a question that you’ve been the best job I’ve ever had. You’ve been fun, given me amazing opportunities to travel and meet cool people. We’ve laughed over beers and the Whiskey Wall, over Ping Pong and Darts and Arm Wrestling. Hell, you even put a gym in the basement. No other job has even come close to caring about me the way you do. The way your insurance covers me and Holly so completely, making sure even our teeth and our eyes are healthy. You’ve outdone yourself.

But you see, I’m going through some things. And, right now, I just don’t know that I’m ready for a job.

And before you ask. No. There isn’t another employer. I haven’t been running off to work for someone else while I say I’m home sick. I swear.

And it’s not somebody else’s desk that’s wooing me away.

It’s just that, right now, I need to be free. I need to work on other things.

No, don’t say that. It’s not you, it’s me. It’s that I need to be true to me right now.

I’ve been thinking about working on Paleo Plan full-time since I created it. You’ve seen me spending time with Paleo on nights and weekends, you know how much it means to me. I just want to give it a shot.

And look, we can still be friends. I’ll be just up the street at PIE. We’ll still bump into each other, and I want those to be happy times. I don’t want to sit here, trying to be everything you deserve, while in my heart, wondering what Paleo could be like. I want you to be happy, and you’ll find someone to fill that place in your building where I am now. And that person will be perfect for you. But it’s not me. I’m sorry.

And I mean it. I’ve loved our time together. All of you are so special to me and I’ve learned so much and grown so much being part of you. I’ll really miss you.

Jason

Yeah. I’m saying goodbye to Urban Airship and their amazing and talented team. The only thing that could pull me away was the chance to work on my own project (Paleo Plan), full-time, without the need for freelance. It’s been several years in the making, but I’m now there, and beginning Monday, will be working back at PIE–another project I’m in love with. :)

Thanks UA for a fantastic trip. You don’t even need my luck, you’re already killing it.